Our usual practice on road trips is to pack the car the day before and leave home in the pre dawn hours avoiding all of the city traffic and because of the failure of the Ford’s air-con much of the heat as well. It was 4 am when we got the kids settled in the back seat and my wife and I fare welled Shaggy who was frankly rather disappointed that he could not come with us but we had arranged for my brother to come and house sit for us to keep an eye on things and feed the animals.
“You will be OK mate “I told our loyal hound, giving him a pat” We will be back soon and you will have some company but until then you guard the house” He looked up at me with cataract clouded eyes and tilted his head to one side as if to say “yeah right” I could see him standing at the window as I backed the car out and I thought of just how long we have shared our lives with that small brown dog.
He had arrived via Airfreight, a very small puppy in a very large pet pack. I had bought him to be the stud for my dog breeding enterprise and he was from the start something special, a bundle of fluff the colour of dark chocolate with an affable nature and the quick intelligence that his breed is known for and the other dogs quickly accepted him that we had at the time. His papers said that his name was “Saisonelle Country style” which we thought was terrible so we called him “Chakotay” after the character from Star trek Voyager.
Chakotay was an inquisitive pup and just days after we got him home he disappeared and I was convinced that a Wedgie had got him when I could not find him . The place we where we were living was in the middle of a field surrounded by tall clumps of metre high grass and as it turned out he was lost amongst that jungle and it was only when my wife had been in our outside dunny that she had heard his cries that we found him again. He had spent the night trying to find his way back and had picked up 14 ticks in the process. We rushed him to the vet and it was touch and go if he would survive. The vet was actually surprised that he survived because one tick can kill a full grown dog and fourteen on a very small pup is very bad indeed. But survive he did and as we watched him grow to maturity we were delighted with the dog that he became. He learnt all of the usual things that we humans think that I dog should know with ease learning to be part of our pack without losing his dignity in the process. When he grew big enough to perform the stud duties that I had bought him for I remember joking to a friend that he was a very lucky dog who made his living by shagging, this was a joke that I told quite a few times to various people, from that observation and that ribald joke he earned the title of “The Shaggs” and eventually we began to call him just Shaggs or Shaggy.
During the time that I was actively breeding dogs the Shaggs fathered many pups and the vast majority of them turned out to be great dogs and when I decided to get out of the dog breeding game Shaggs was the only dog that we kept, all of the bitches found new homes with new owners but the Shaggs was quite contended to retire to household duties and he formed a particularly close bond with my wife. Shaggs saw the arrival of our children and he was never jealous or mean to them even when the pulled his ears or treated him roughly he retained his gentle nature.
He had the sort of canine ESP that meant that he knew when a walk was going to happen and no amount of subterfuge could ever fool him and going on a walk with out the Shaggs well that was just unthinkable until just a couple of months ago when he began to find it too much. He wanted to go still but he had stopped pulling on the lead and the hills seemed to be too much. And when he got sick a few weeks ago so clearly in pain I took him to the vet, She was trying to be diplomatic but I just knew that his days were numbered. The pills she prescribed made him comfortable but he was losing a lot of weight because he just ate so little. It was like watching him melt away.
As we drove away from home I wondered if he would be waiting at the door when we got home. There was part of me that just wanted him to see Christmas. Denial is a wonderful soporific and we all just let our worries about the Shaggs slide as we got into travel mode. Our journey was uneventful and thankfully quicker than it has been in previous years because of the upgrades to the road, setting out early helped as well and after ten hours on the road we arrived at our home for the next week. It all went to the usual holiday script until the phone rang last Thursday evening.
“I have some bad news for you Iain” my brother told me ” Shaggy has passed away “
He told me the details and I was glad that the Shaggs had not suffered. He had just gone quietly in his sleep.
We discussed where he was to be buried and my brother took up the crowbar and the shovel to dig his grave, working well into the night until it was finished.
My wife was grief stricken and my daughter cried those deep sobs that make you feel so inadequate. Together we all talked about how much we were going to miss the Shaggs and as you do when someone you love has died we talked about the things about his life that we fondly remembered. With the remembering came some small comfort and some easing of the pain but we all wanted to be home then but with just one more full day by the beach it just made sense to stick to our plan to leave early on Saturday morning.
We sort of spent Friday in a daze of sorts My wife took the children to the estuary for a swim and I buried myself into the pages of Stephen King’s “The Stand” where I found the familiar but largely forgotten narrative some comfort. After packing the car on Friday evening and cleaning the house we ate our last dinner there and after the family went to sleep I spent a while watching a rather corny disaster film about London being wiped out by a storm surge and during the far too frequent ad breaks I managed to catch the news reports about the failure (as expected) of the Copenhagen talk fest.
Our journey home was almost entirely unremarkable; the children were even able to get along. We cheered as we crossed the Queensland border even though we had many miles left to travel, by the time that we got to the bottom of our own mountain all of us wanted to be home, out of the car and in our house the thought of a cup of tea made with rainwater was what kept me going up the last bit of road. As I pulled into the garage I could see the small mound of earth that marked Shaggy’s grave. We all got out of the car and hand in hand we stood around the disturbed earth thinking about our little mate, of the puppy that he was and the fine dog that he became and the way that he was part of our family.
There are some jaded souls who just don’t get the way that our companion animals come to be so important and how we can grieve as deeply for a dog as we do for any human being. I am not one of them. The future will see another dog becoming part of our family and as I used to tell so many people when I was a dog breeder, a new pup does make it easier to get over a loss but it is best not to be too hasty.
We will get another dog soon enough but not before the time is right.
Cheers Comrades
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